Why????

I don't know why I'm living for....
All of my day now make no sense.
I'm so negative person that have no reason to laugh or t be happy,or may be just smile!!
I don't have any dreams.
I wanna to be slim and slender.
I wanna be a beauty women.
But the only thing that I do now in the present moment life is complain about all.
I'm a bitch!!!!